Ballad of a Broken Friendship

You told me it was safe

And I believed you

Followed by words of entitlement

I didn't deserve

My kindness

Taken for interest

My care

Gives you a pass

To throw daggers

Made of words

You blame me 

For your life

You blame me

For your misery

Your anger

Sucks the life from me

With each attack

And I can say nothing back

Your pain howls

So loudly

I feel it in my soul

But you told me it was safe

I believed you

Every time

I believe you

And every time

You break my heart

~ Alice

Fractured

And through the night, we search 

Our dreams tossing us to and fro, 

giving us glimpses of our fractured psyches

Soothing us at one moment, terrifying us in the next,

Dropping us into a swirling landscape, alone, searching...

searching...

Our demons may rise to meet us

as we fly through space and time.

They may stop us and whisper quietly,

reminding us of our many names and faces;

They may scream and blast us

with a tempest of rain and fire,

terrified we will continue on our way.

But the river that lies beyond,

illuminated by the moon that shines round and full.

The river that is guarded by Mother Owl 

 and bordered by the webs of Grandmother Spider,

spinning the tale of truth for us all...

This is where the answers lie

And this is where our demons dare not follow

lest they see themselves as they truly are -

the broken fragments of a once whole self.

This river is where we become whole.

But can we make it there?

Do we even want to?

~ Alice

A Becoming

The ocean calls to me

Primitive

Guttural

Roaring the siren songs of the ages 

to every cell in my body

Calling me back

Back to the ocean

I long for the warm salt on my lips

Intimate, swirling pressure

Pounding

Resounding

Sounds 

Of the deep

Waters

Dark and expansive

Enveloping me

Holding me

Writhing with me

Filling my mouth

And my ears and my eyes

Caressing my skin

Filtering the light

So I shine

I belong to the water

And the water is me

It holds my hair for me

As I dance in the nothingness

The vast everything

The live void

The creatrix

And devourer

Creating my stasis

As I tumble in place

I embrace 

the monsters here

I am the monsters here

~ Alice